literally

literally.
just some thoughts of late.


*the brain is the most amazing organ in the body. how is it that you can go to sleep and wake up & remember all the wonderful memories (and awful ones) but in an instant, something happens, and you lose your memory. and then there are things that we have blocked out for so long but have a way of coming back into our thoughts? literally amazing.

*we're always saying, "can't wait", "i wish it was tomorrow, the 2nd, etc", "is it 5pm (or whatever time) yet?".. so i'm making myself enjoy the in-the-moment and focusing on the day. as i get older, time seems to go by faster and faster each day.

*dreams that i have been having have literally been scaring me. i woke up in tears from last nights dream. they feel too real and i hope they aren't going to be actually real.

*i'm tired of stressing about money. i'm tired of living literally dollar to dollar. no matter what i do, no matter what "rules" i follow to save money, i never get ahead to actually save or when i do save some, it's gone because another bill needs to get paid, etc.  a little overwhelmed.

*but no matter what crap is going on or the crap that other people pull, i have a lot of be thankful for, period.


just breathe.
and scream sometimes :P